Life Update

Placement is going extremely well, I've meet so many amazing people and I am truly loving my time at GROW. My summer plans are shaping together nicely, at the moment they are to continue volunteering in GROW until the end of June and then to volunteer in a summer camp run specifically for children with disabilities, then August consists of my 21st and then the big move to Holland for 4 months. 

It hit me today how freaking scared I am about going to Holland, I know I'm going with my friend and it will be amazing but oh god I am terrified!! 

My blog has been going terrible I realise, as much as I hate to admit it I am not a blog person, it just isn't be I am too tired and not nearly dedicated enough! Plus I'm useless at all the editing business so my blog just looks so bland compared to everyone elses. 

Its St. Patricks weekend as you all know, I'm heading to Cork tomorrow to my boyfriends and I'm sure we'll head out on Sunday, are any of you doing anything unusual? I usually find Paddys day crap, there's this unrealistic expectation that it is going to be great night, rarely works out like that for me. I'm quite scared about going to my boyfriend its the first time I'll be there without back up from my other friends and anyway it is only my second time being there! So wish me luck, I'm pretty useless at all this family business anyway. 

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Anxiety

I have always for as long as I can remember been a nervous person. Up until recently I didn't understand that  actually the level of this nervous-ness or anxiety wasn't quiet normal ( we aren't meant to say normal, but you know). Since starting my placement, I've working with people with anxiety disorders and those who suffer panic attacks. I think now that feeling that has always been in the background of my life is low level anxiety. I'm learning breathing techniques and other skills to reduce and help me with my sleeping, or lack of it. Obviously it isn't a major problem, and it doesn't cripple me the way it can for other people but it is nice to know I don't always have to feel worried about something.

Placement is going great, I  wrote a big post on it but some how it got deleted and a mixture of being busy and lazy meant I never rewrote it. So basically it is going good, I'm getting a lot of experience and a huge insight into the lives of those who are affected my mental health problems.